Challenges...

Just as one challenge ends. A new one begins.

I wonder...

Just these last few days, I've been wondering about the future.

I wonder what the future holds for me.

I wonder what will happen to me.

I wonder if the path I'm taking is the right one.

I wonder what will happen to me next year?

I wonder if I will go to TAFE or straight into UNI or do a UPC course at ECU.

I wonder if I will be able to graduate high school?

Just wondering and thinking about those thoughts scares me and whenever I think about it, my heart begin to beat really fast. I've been in school for 12 years. I've always had the help and support from teachers, friends and classmates. If it weren't for them, I will most definitely be lost these past 12 years. Now that I'm finish with high school, excluding my family, I wonder if I'll still have the same support from my friends and others who I will meet along the way. Exams are coming up. Mocks is in a week time and the WACE is in a month time. Will I succeed or fail? I'm scared. I'm taking lots of deep breath these days. My heart is beating fast again. Sometimes, I image that there will be some kind of miracle. That I will pass in the end. I want to run. But I can't. I'm jealous of those who doesn't need to take exams. I'm jealous of those who are smart. I'm jealous of those who doesn't need to study and still get great marks. In two months time, this will all be over. I'm scared. What will become of me in the future? What have god planned for me?

I wonder...

School...

Excluding the two days where we go back to grab our exam results, despite us taken our exams...September 30th 2011 is a very important date. Why? Because today is the day that marked our official last day at school as a whole year group ever. I must say, it is rather depressing. I miss it more than I miss primary school. Everyday for the last 12 years, more in the last 5 years, my routine has been this: wake up, go to school, chill with friends, go home, study/internet, shower, dinner, study/internet, sleep, wake up, go to school and so on. I feel like crying but no tears are coming out.

High school... so many memories to cherish whether it's good memories or bad memories, they are still memories to be cherish forever. I will definitely miss contact, recess and lunch time where I got to chill with friends and let my self lose until the next class. Now a new challenge awakes. Right now I will be facing exams for the next two months. I hope I can survive. A whole year worth of stuff to remember and learn all over again. I don't know if I can do it.

This is nearly the end of the chapter for me. Soon a new one awakes.

Until then...

Ciao

Parents

Why are both my parents so stubborn? I swear they have nothing in common but they are still able to fall in love and marry? They always argue with each other because dad doesn't like some of the things that mum do. Sometimes it's serious and gone way too far and sometimes it's only for a really short amount of time that they're mad at each other until either one tries to cheer the other up. I'm surprise that they're not divorce by now (not that I want them too. MOST DEFINITELY NOT).

Dad is stubborn because: he thinks he hasn't changed. He thinks the whole world has changed but him. He thinks us children has changed. I mean come on, were still young, it's normal if we changed as long as it's for the good and not the opposite. But he just doesn't get it (even though we've told him over and over and over again. His stubborn because he thinks everything he does is right. Everything he does is for the best. Whatever we do just never meets his expectations. He says he doesn't compare us to anybody when really he does. He also gets affected by what others say to him really easily and he thinks he doesn't. He thinks that because his the dad, we should should use appropriate language/manner towards him. He just doesn't get that sometimes he can be wrong.

Mum is also stubborn. She's also the jealous type and a hard forgiver. If someone says something to her that she doesn't like or whatever, she can remember that quote from them for a very very long time. She can also hate someone for 8+ years. She also get mad/pissed pretty easily.

I can list all the stubborn things from both my parents but what's the point? At the end of the day, they are still my parents and I'm just glad to say that they won't ever get a divorce no matter how serious their argument is.

Exams are coming up. How on earth am I suppose to study it all within a weeks time? We've had too little time to revise and learn everything. Instead of having 4 weeks, we really had 3 weeks of revision... I hate it when the teachers give you assignments to do when the exams are getting so close...they shouldn't do that. It's not cool. I also hate it how on my last day of the exams, I have two again. Just like the very first time when I had my exams. I had Ancient History and Human Biology. This time, I also have Ancient Histroy but with Maths instead. It's also not cool. I reckon that the exams should be in week 6. Giving us an extra week of revision...

Haven't posted in a blog in a while. Seems like there is nothing new to say. Except I had a swell time at the school ball on Saturday 16th April 2011. There. There's something new to say there. But now there is nothing new to say anymore. Therefore I should be going. Goodnight.

ahhh... so much stress this week! wish I could fastforward time or skip time and make this all disappear because when I press play again, it's the day of the graduation and then I know that his is all over :l