25th November 2011.

This date marked a very important day in my life. This is the day of my graduation. A day where my 12 years of education ends. I thought this day will never come but eventually it did. I thought I will cry on this day but turned out I didn't which surprised me. Another thing that surprised me was that, I didn't take any photos at the graduation breakfast nor at the graduation which was totally not like me. I'm afraid that without these photos, I will never remember what the day was like in my memories but I will try and keep a hold of it. Anyways, back to the graduation. When it was my turn to graduate, I was nervous getting up on that stage as I hate being the center of attention but at the same time, I couldn't believe that I was graduating as my results hasn't been that great for the last two years, yet at the same time, I was so happy that I was graduating. The only thing I regret that day besides not taking any photos, was saying goodbye to my friends. It's hard to say goodbye to those who I will probably never see again. In the future? Maybe. Now? Not likely but who knows. Only god knows but he won't tell us as our future has not yet been decided. But in the mean time, I will definitely try and keep in touch with them to maintain the friendship. To the friends I hang out with the most, I will definitely try and make time to see them as they are now part of my life and are the people (excluding teachers and parents) that help got me through high school. I'm gonna miss being in this safe environment where I have been looked after by teachers who helped got me though hard questions and assignments and sacrificed their time to explain to me some of the things I don't understand or things that I got wrong etc. Yeah, I admit, I'm gonna miss high school so much. High school is what I have been doing every day for the last 5 years of my life. But one thing I know for sure is that, high school is the kind of place where you discover who you really are. It has helped to discover who I really am. While some may have hung out with the wrong group of people/friends and did stupid things, I'm glad to say, I have hung out with the right group of friends. One that wouldn't let me do bad things or pressure me into doing something I don't want to do. Sometimes it's just hard to say goodbye. For many, this may be the end. But to me, I think this is just the beginning of a whole new adventure. While one chapter of my life have again, ended, another brand new chapter has just begun. All I have to do now is to read what this chapter is about, to read where this chapter will lead me to in life. I hope this chapter will be just as good as the previous one with many more memories to be stored and remember.

Challenges...

Just as one challenge ends. A new one begins.

I wonder...

Just these last few days, I've been wondering about the future.

I wonder what the future holds for me.

I wonder what will happen to me.

I wonder if the path I'm taking is the right one.

I wonder what will happen to me next year?

I wonder if I will go to TAFE or straight into UNI or do a UPC course at ECU.

I wonder if I will be able to graduate high school?

Just wondering and thinking about those thoughts scares me and whenever I think about it, my heart begin to beat really fast. I've been in school for 12 years. I've always had the help and support from teachers, friends and classmates. If it weren't for them, I will most definitely be lost these past 12 years. Now that I'm finish with high school, excluding my family, I wonder if I'll still have the same support from my friends and others who I will meet along the way. Exams are coming up. Mocks is in a week time and the WACE is in a month time. Will I succeed or fail? I'm scared. I'm taking lots of deep breath these days. My heart is beating fast again. Sometimes, I image that there will be some kind of miracle. That I will pass in the end. I want to run. But I can't. I'm jealous of those who doesn't need to take exams. I'm jealous of those who are smart. I'm jealous of those who doesn't need to study and still get great marks. In two months time, this will all be over. I'm scared. What will become of me in the future? What have god planned for me?

I wonder...

School...

Excluding the two days where we go back to grab our exam results, despite us taken our exams...September 30th 2011 is a very important date. Why? Because today is the day that marked our official last day at school as a whole year group ever. I must say, it is rather depressing. I miss it more than I miss primary school. Everyday for the last 12 years, more in the last 5 years, my routine has been this: wake up, go to school, chill with friends, go home, study/internet, shower, dinner, study/internet, sleep, wake up, go to school and so on. I feel like crying but no tears are coming out.

High school... so many memories to cherish whether it's good memories or bad memories, they are still memories to be cherish forever. I will definitely miss contact, recess and lunch time where I got to chill with friends and let my self lose until the next class. Now a new challenge awakes. Right now I will be facing exams for the next two months. I hope I can survive. A whole year worth of stuff to remember and learn all over again. I don't know if I can do it.

This is nearly the end of the chapter for me. Soon a new one awakes.

Until then...

Ciao

Parents

Why are both my parents so stubborn? I swear they have nothing in common but they are still able to fall in love and marry? They always argue with each other because dad doesn't like some of the things that mum do. Sometimes it's serious and gone way too far and sometimes it's only for a really short amount of time that they're mad at each other until either one tries to cheer the other up. I'm surprise that they're not divorce by now (not that I want them too. MOST DEFINITELY NOT).

Dad is stubborn because: he thinks he hasn't changed. He thinks the whole world has changed but him. He thinks us children has changed. I mean come on, were still young, it's normal if we changed as long as it's for the good and not the opposite. But he just doesn't get it (even though we've told him over and over and over again. His stubborn because he thinks everything he does is right. Everything he does is for the best. Whatever we do just never meets his expectations. He says he doesn't compare us to anybody when really he does. He also gets affected by what others say to him really easily and he thinks he doesn't. He thinks that because his the dad, we should should use appropriate language/manner towards him. He just doesn't get that sometimes he can be wrong.

Mum is also stubborn. She's also the jealous type and a hard forgiver. If someone says something to her that she doesn't like or whatever, she can remember that quote from them for a very very long time. She can also hate someone for 8+ years. She also get mad/pissed pretty easily.

I can list all the stubborn things from both my parents but what's the point? At the end of the day, they are still my parents and I'm just glad to say that they won't ever get a divorce no matter how serious their argument is.

Exams are coming up. How on earth am I suppose to study it all within a weeks time? We've had too little time to revise and learn everything. Instead of having 4 weeks, we really had 3 weeks of revision... I hate it when the teachers give you assignments to do when the exams are getting so close...they shouldn't do that. It's not cool. I also hate it how on my last day of the exams, I have two again. Just like the very first time when I had my exams. I had Ancient History and Human Biology. This time, I also have Ancient Histroy but with Maths instead. It's also not cool. I reckon that the exams should be in week 6. Giving us an extra week of revision...

Haven't posted in a blog in a while. Seems like there is nothing new to say. Except I had a swell time at the school ball on Saturday 16th April 2011. There. There's something new to say there. But now there is nothing new to say anymore. Therefore I should be going. Goodnight.

ahhh... so much stress this week! wish I could fastforward time or skip time and make this all disappear because when I press play again, it's the day of the graduation and then I know that his is all over :l

Remembering the good old days. Aka. My Childhood

I missed my childhood. Just the other day, I was having a conversation with my friend during psychology and we were talking about the cartoons we used to watch back in the good old days... Rugrats, Franklin, Yugio, Pokemon, Scooby doo, Lilo and Stitch, Hey Arnold! and much more like Lizzie McGuire... ahhh... Lizzie McGuire... my childhood is not complete. I never actually sat down and watched one full episode of Lizzie McGuire... this is so sad :( But I have made a promise to myself that I will save up money and buy the complete season/series. As well as some of my past favorite anime/cartoon. I don't care if I'm too old for these anime/cartoon. One day, I am and I will have a big marathon memorizing the good old days.

This conversation left me wondering with one question.

What happen to all the kids shows these days?

Random.P.S. I missed the old Toasted TV. It was so much better when Pip and Dan were host. Now the new Toasted TV just... killed it...

Another.Random.P.P.S. I missed Cheese TV :(

Why do my parents get irritated over possibly the most smallest and possibly the most simplest thing ever? Grrrrr... that really annoys the heck out of me >:(

The blogs I write these days are short and full of crap.

Nothing to write about.

Boring to read.

Just like this post.

I wonder why people will actually waste their precious time reading my useless blog?

Oh well, at least I know that I have friends who cares about me.

Am so grateful to have the friends I have today.

I just hope/wished, that when they have problems, they can trust me with it. Trust me that I will not tell anyone else.

I wished they are not afraid to come talk to me.

If they do, it really means a lot to me because to me, it means they trust me with whatever they tell me.

But seriously, it feels so much better to get things of your chest if you talk to somebody about it rather than have it hidden inside you where it hurts to even think about it for a split second.

Sometimes, I really am worried about my friends more than I worry about myself...

:l

Everything seems to be going wrong these days. I just wished to go back to childhood. Even though my childhood memories is a blur and it definitely was not the same as everyone else's childhood, things were definitely a lot funner and a lot easier back then.

The ball

Just exactly one more month until the ball. It is going to be a swell night =]

So glad my friends are going. I mean, this night will mean nothing if none of them are going. And besides, this event will happen only once in my lifetime.

It's gonna be a night to remember =]

Japan's Tsunami

My prayers goes out to those from Japan. I hope the connection will be working again soon. My International friend still cannot contact her family yesterday. I hope she can today. This is so sad. I wish I can help. :'(
Stay strong everyone, everything is gonna be okay.
♥

I may seem happy all the time. Most times, I am happy because I love life. But sometimes, I just put on a face and pretend that I am happy when really, I'm not and beneath that face, I'm just an ordinary girl who is having a hard time.

Once again, everything is falling apart for me... again... :l

Really have no motivation today and I have an idea it's gonna continue like that for another couple of days... :l

Mum, Dad...

...Happy 26th anniversary mum and dad. I'm glad you two are still together after 26 years of marriage. But please, do me a favour, stop going off at each other over the possibly, the smallest thing ever. But nevertheless, I love you both very, very much :)

Procrastinating is badddd. Very, very badddd. :l

Sometimes, I just want to escape reality, escape this world and never come back... until I feel like it that is... and when I do come back, hopefully, everything will be different... way, way different... yeah, in my dreams :l

Fed Up

Am over summer already. This is just agony! Why does the sky/weather have to torture us like this? Just want summer to be over and done with already. Am so ready for winter :l

4...almost 5 weeks into school and I'm already stressed with school work. Thank god I'm only doing 5 tee subjects this year instead of 6. I sooo needed that study break. God bless the person who invented the idea of letting us year 12 have a study zone ^_^ Glad this week is nearly over. Been stressing all week... but then again, I've still got the whole year to... yer I'm not even gonna finish that sentence of. I want to study, I try to study, but the thought of actually doing it just makes me want to procrastinate even more... on the bright side, I'm passing 3 subjects so far... but it'll drop... I hope it doesn't though :S

Seems like freedom is over. A new year, a new beginning, new habit of studying (hopefully).

It's almost over.

This time, it really is almost over.

This morning, I woke up, went outside to the lounge room, looked at the calendar thinking, it's Australia day this week. Which means Australia day is this... Wednesday... This Wednesday?!?! But then, that means I only have one week left before school starts again... Which means school is next week...next Wednesday! Oh man! I thought I have two more weeks of holiday left. *cries mentally*

This means a lot of things. I gotta start getting my school books, gotta find a ball dress real soon. And most importantly, I better start picking up my acts if I want to graduate this year.

Oh man, why can't I have that extra week that I thought we have? *cries even more mentally*

:'(

The Great Flood

I'm sure we have all heard of the great flood in Australia over in the Eastern State. As I am only a high school student and cannot do much, all I can do is to pray for those who has lost their loved ones and donate if I see a charity fund. So please, if you have a kind heart and is willing to do anything to those who are still recovering, fighting and/or suffering from the floods, please donate or try to help out. Right now, they really need us to get back onto the ground and feel the dry Earth with their feet once again. Even if it's $1, it can and will make a difference. It's the thoughts that counts. They will thank you for it. God bless to those who are still fighting strong even till now. God bless to those who are not willing to give up that easily. God bless to those who are not willing to give up hope. God bless ♥ ♥

Learners Permit

On January 13th 2011, I went to the licensing center in Joondalup to sit the test and get my Learner's Permit. Was kinda nervous when I did the test to be honest but then, I went in, sat down and got straight into it, came out got my results and got 30/30. Was so happy. Seems like doing all those practice quiz on my laptop at home was worth it after all. But now, I'm kinda nervous to go for my first lesson that my dad is gonna give me before getting an instructor. Never been behind the wheels before. And the thought that I have to actually start memorizing the streets, suburbs etc seems kinda scary to me as I never needed to before...

Freedom = almost gone

So, it seems that I only have a couple of weeks left till school starts again. Which means, I'm gonna have to start getting my school books soon. Which means, my freedom is almost gone. Which means, I'm gonna have to start studying hard again. This year, in order to pass, I'm going to try and actually study the proper way and try not to procrastinate.

Happy New Year ♥

It's new years today. For me, 2010 was alright. There were many ups and downs during that year. I missed it already. But that is the past. Starting from today is a new beginning. A new chapter in life. A new start to another year. This be the year of 2011. It is also the year where hopefully, I'll be able to graduate from high school. 2011, please be good to me because I only have 365 days to spend before 2012 comes. Nevertheless, do have a good year everyone.

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)
god bless ♥