Childhood

Childhood. What do you think of when you hear, see or think of the word childhood? When I hear, see or think of the word childhood, I think of innocence, cute, absent-minded, having a fun time and many more that have yet to escape my mind/thoughts. How is it possible that when we were a child, life seems so much easier? I guess it's obvious that I miss being a little girl... I also miss being the little girl who doesn't have to worry about a thing in the world because everyone makes the decision for her, that little girl who is always, ever so happy, that little girl who...I'm not gonna continue...but I guess growing up (to me that is) means being more mature, being able to make better decision and know what your doing, being able to see a bit further than when you were as a child and getting to know the world a bit better. I guess I just have to wait and see what the future brings for me. What will happen in the future? Will I still be that little girl at heart? Will I still be the same person I've always been or will I change into some monster? What will the future bring me? There is so many questions that I want to ask myself (and god), but I guess now is not the time, or maybe I just have to wait and see. I suppose I'll be able to discover the answer by myself or with the help of others one day... until then, I just have to stick with the present for now but my past as a little girl will always stay in my heart. My past will always remain behind. My past will always be in the past and it will stay in the past forever...